Recovery Day 24: I’m posting to keep myself motivated and focused. To be honest, I’ve noticed lot of muscle mass loss over the last few weeks. While this, coupled with my deswelling process, makes it look like I’m losing weight, I can’t say I’m not discouraged because I feel like a lot of the time and energy I put into the gym is being lost with my inactivity. However, this is nothing when compared to how much progress I’ve made. And I’m not just talking about my physical transformation. As I’m recovering, I‘ve been reflecting on my spiritual and mental growth. My shift from self-deprecating, internalized shame to self-love and confidence. I do want to make something clear. This attitude shift did not come after I lost the weight. I say this because weight loss did not solve my insecurities, mental health, or life problems. I came to a point where I had to accept myself and love who I was for me and not for anybody else. It was this mind shift that allowed me to believe in my potential. That I CAN be healthy, and I WILL do things I never imagined possible. It was this love for my self that motivated me to get up every day and push myself farther than I thought possible. And it is this same self-love and belief in my potential that will get me through this recovery. Y’all have no idea how excited I am to start working out again but while I’m in this moment, I want to appreciate how far I’ve come.
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