A lie I’ve been telling myself lately ~ “I am not enough.” It hasn’t been on purpose - but it’s been there subconsciously, gradually chipping away at my worth and my self confidence. The thoughts we experience daily hardwire a pattern into our brain and create our subliminal messaging to ourself. It’s very hard to change this and rewire our minds. It’s sooo dangerous to keep going on the same track if you’ve been speaking negativity to yourself .. inside your own head, your own heart. Here is a little breakdown of my reasoning - I’m not a good partner. I don’t always support my man, and I’m often riddled with anxiety and can’t go to functions/be in public because I need to be alone. I’m not a good enough mother because I don’t always have learning activities planned out for Fen, and sometime she eats a whole cookie or piece of pizza or packaged snack for lunch. Sometimes I ignore her to go on my phone, or split my attention between her and my work. I’m not good enough at business because I’m disorganized and forgetful and say I will do things but don’t always follow through. I don’t read tons of scholarly articles and always have studies to quote on a whim. I feel small compared to others who are extroverted/clearly confident. Yesterday in the car I was by myself and I turned the music off, giving myself space to think clearly. I started dissecting all these thoughts and came to some conclusions - I AM a good partner. I support him when it really matters. I stand by him through thick and thin, and do many little things that show him I love him. I AM a good mother. I care fiercely about my baby, protect her, play with her, read to her, and prepare food for her almost every day to make sure she gets what she needs. I AM good at business because I’m relatable + real and I don’t lie and sugar coat things for people. I know my worth and the worth of my knowledge and passion for helping others. Yes, I’m introverted. Yes, I get anxious. But I am STILL ENOUGH. I might not be the flashiest, I might not always be the one obviously proving myself, but I am valuable. I AM ENOUGH. (Cont’d in comments)
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