I love when it first snows. The simple, bright canvas that makes colors pop. The stillness. The fluffy coated tree branches. What I don’t like is the barriers it creates. For 1/4 year I am more disabled than my baseline. The cold temperatures increase joint + muscle pain as well as stiffness, making moving just a tad more difficult. I can barely walk in snow due to weakness and increased burden on my heart. I certainly can’t shovel and clearing my car is extremely difficult + taxing on the ole ticker. I try to pretend and get by, but winters are an extremely difficult time for me. It’s been such a mild winter snow-wise so far that I haven’t had to deal with it much. But today’s gorgeous snowfall serves as a reminder of what I can’t do + how isolating and trapped it can feel during this season. For now I will brew up a hot beverage and not focus on everything I can’t do today, like an important doctor’s appointment I’m missing out on + a few necessary errands - but rather I will focus on what I can do like binge watch HIMYM, listen to audiobooks, tidy, catch up on phone calls, plan, and get sh*t done.
#semidisabledlife
#semidisabledlife
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