đ my near-death wisdomđ When I was 25 my boyfriend at the time and I were on the beach in Nicaragua. We were splashing water around wading in the ocean. Next thing we knew, the powerful undertow had us treading water. He was a surfer and grew up with the ocean in his backyard. I was more... delicateđŁ and inexperienced in rough water. We got separated and he swam ashore. Meanwhile I didnât know which way was up. I felt like a ragdoll in the spin cycle. I was getting sucked under, flailing my limbs, panicking and feeling sorry for my boyfriend because my parents were going to kill him for letting me die. I also thought that this was such an unintelligent way to go.... I know pointless thoughts đ¤ˇđźââď¸ Frommerâs SAID people die on these lifeguard-free beaches all. the. time!
Every time I got my head above water I could hear him yelling out to me. I understood he was saying to âgo limpâ or something along those lines. I trusted him, took that advice and somehow washed ashore in shock and without a top ha! It still gives me a rush of anxiety to recall that day. I woke up in a cold sweat for the next few weeks (and Iâm still afraid of waves) SHOOK.
Anyway, in meditation today I thought about that experience as a metaphor. Letting go is really the easier way to getting where we want to go. We do so much pushing and fighting against the world for what we want. Sometimes we do get there by force, or by killing ourselves in the process. However, wouldnât it be easier, faster and less traumatic to just relax and allow the natural flow ...? #downwithgrinding #chill đł
#downwithgrinding #chill
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