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(2012 ⏩ now) . My transformation: in my case, I used to treat my body like a garbage can because I wanted to be skinny and have abs because that’s what I used to think fitness was. . Pic 1️⃣: -freshman year of high school -sitting around 110-115 pounds at 5’ 7” -running 90+ minutes a day -hating my body, eating minimally . I vividly remember my relationship with food because it was HORRIBLE. For example, I would look at how much a whole box of Graham crackers weighed and then do the math to figure out how much weight I would put on by eating 1 cracker. I would eat that one Graham cracker, an apple, and maybe celery throughout the day at my lowest. . When I went for my 90+ min runs, I would spit constantly because in my head the more I spit the less I weighed 🤷‍♀️ I ran XC in high school and there were a few races where I didn’t eat anything all day and I felt faint during my races. . I thought I was too big if I couldn’t see my abs. I heard people tell me time and time again “eat a friggin burger why don’t you!” Every time someone said that it was validation that I was that much closer to being my idea of skinny and fit but really in my head I was thinking about how much weight I’d gain if I actually ate a burger. . I was lost and unhappy and I felt alone. . Pic 2️⃣: -taken today, about 6 years after the 1st picture -weighing around 130-135 pounds -lift weights and run because I feel strong with both . My relationship with food is HEALTHY after years of thinking food was the enemy. Sure, I still have days where I pick myself apart and critique myself but it’s easier to take a step back now and understand how far I’ve come. . I now feed my body to train and run and do all the things I know I’m capable of. My mental health is a priority as well as my physical health. Looking back, I was never diagnosed with an eating disorder, but I can recognize the signs that I probably had one. We all have our own struggles but the cool thing about being alive in 2018 is that we have all these new ways of connecting with people over the same things that used to destroy us. . I now have a healthier mindset & I’m constantly learning more about health and fitness.

(2012 ⏩ now) . My transformation: in my case, I used to treat my body like a garbage can because I wanted to be skinny and have abs because that’s what I used to think fitness was. . Pic 1️⃣: -freshman year of high school -sitting around 110-115 pounds at 5’ 7” -running 90+ minutes a day -hating my body, eating minimally . I vividly remember my relationship with food because it was HORRIBLE. For example, I would look at how much a whole box of Graham crackers weighed and then do the math to figure out how much weight I would put on by eating 1 cracker. I would eat that one Graham cracker, an apple, and maybe celery throughout the day at my lowest. . When I went for my 90+ min runs, I would spit constantly because in my head the more I spit the less I weighed 🤷‍♀️ I ran XC in high school and there were a few races where I didn’t eat anything all day and I felt faint during my races. . I thought I was too big if I couldn’t see my abs. I heard people tell me time and time again “eat a friggin burger why don’t you!” Every time someone said that it was validation that I was that much closer to being my idea of skinny and fit but really in my head I was thinking about how much weight I’d gain if I actually ate a burger. . I was lost and unhappy and I felt alone. . Pic 2️⃣: -taken today, about 6 years after the 1st picture -weighing around 130-135 pounds -lift weights and run because I feel strong with both . My relationship with food is HEALTHY after years of thinking food was the enemy. Sure, I still have days where I pick myself apart and critique myself but it’s easier to take a step back now and understand how far I’ve come. . I now feed my body to train and run and do all the things I know I’m capable of. My mental health is a priority as well as my physical health. Looking back, I was never diagnosed with an eating disorder, but I can recognize the signs that I probably had one. We all have our own struggles but the cool thing about being alive in 2018 is that we have all these new ways of connecting with people over the same things that used to destroy us. . I now have a healthier mindset & I’m constantly learning more about health and fitness.

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