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‪Our illnesses should always be seen as a health opportunity! ‬ ‪12 years ago I stood over a toilet bowl looking at my self induced vomit after purging on thousands of calories. It was a ritual I knew all too well. The shame I felt for having a beautiful body ran deep — How dare I look the way I did How dare I be proud of the way I looked and felt How dare I hit the gym every day and put time and effort into my health. I’m conceited I don’t fit in I’m too much yet not enough — I said a prayer that night I asked God to take away the urge to purge I invited God to sit with me next to a toilet full of vomit. I promised God I would do good work in this world if he would give me the key to unlock the cure to my mind being riddled with guilt and shame over my body. — I let go of my bulimia that night But I never released the shame — Recently I was woke to the realization there are still tiny fragments of shame inside of my mind, Embedded in my heart & creating walls in my life — A reoccurring skin issue emerged 2months ago☹️It is irritating, debilitating & quite embarrassing for me — A way to ward off intimacy Covering my body in layers Shying away from truly sharing myself with others out of the embarrassment of this skin issue being seen — I hid I cried then...my heart cracked open deeper Then the knowledge in the gifts poured in — Had I not had bulimia I would have never adopted a #plantbased lifestyle. I would’ve never taught others how to #detox their bodies on a cellular level. I would’ve never started my first channel and I would’ve never written my books — I sat this morning #meditating on Gods love in FULL ON self acceptance. I invited the #healing energy in. I saw that my #bulimia worked as a teacher and my #psoriasis flares are a clear sign of #divineprotection Illuminating illusions shielding me from anything that is not honest and true. I wrote this prayer⬇️ for all of us May we release pain w/o getting caught up in stories or history. May we have compassion for our own suffering as we release w/peace & love. May we be lifted by our luminous beauty inside our hearts up to peace. May we feel rapture & excitement rather than fear & doubt as we grow

‪Our illnesses should always be seen as a health opportunity! ‬ ‪12 years ago I stood over a toilet bowl looking at my self induced vomit after purging on thousands of calories. It was a ritual I knew all too well. The shame I felt for having a beautiful body ran deep — How dare I look the way I did How dare I be proud of the way I looked and felt How dare I hit the gym every day and put time and effort into my health. I’m conceited I don’t fit in I’m too much yet not enough — I said a prayer that night I asked God to take away the urge to purge I invited God to sit with me next to a toilet full of vomit. I promised God I would do good work in this world if he would give me the key to unlock the cure to my mind being riddled with guilt and shame over my body. — I let go of my bulimia that night But I never released the shame — Recently I was woke to the realization there are still tiny fragments of shame inside of my mind, Embedded in my heart & creating walls in my life — A reoccurring skin issue emerged 2months ago☹️It is irritating, debilitating & quite embarrassing for me — A way to ward off intimacy Covering my body in layers Shying away from truly sharing myself with others out of the embarrassment of this skin issue being seen — I hid I cried then...my heart cracked open deeper Then the knowledge in the gifts poured in — Had I not had bulimia I would have never adopted a #plantbased lifestyle. I would’ve never taught others how to #detox their bodies on a cellular level. I would’ve never started my first channel and I would’ve never written my books — I sat this morning #meditating on Gods love in FULL ON self acceptance. I invited the #healing energy in. I saw that my #bulimia worked as a teacher and my #psoriasis flares are a clear sign of #divineprotection Illuminating illusions shielding me from anything that is not honest and true. I wrote this prayer⬇️ for all of us May we release pain w/o getting caught up in stories or history. May we have compassion for our own suffering as we release w/peace & love. May we be lifted by our luminous beauty inside our hearts up to peace. May we feel rapture & excitement rather than fear & doubt as we grow

#plantbased #detox #meditating #healing #bulimia #psoriasis #divineprotection

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